Tuesday, May 27, 2008

La..La..La...eXaM datanG laGi...

Sekarang dah penghujung Mei .

Exam dah dekat. Ada 2,3minggu je lagi.

Aku prepare ke blom?

Tak.. Nk kata 10% persediaan pon takde.

So, apa aku perlu buat?

Studi? Ya, studi...


Ini apa yg aku asyik fikirkan dlm kebelakangan ni. Exam, exam, exam.. Walaupon ada kesedaran bahawa exam dah dekat, dan diri belum bersedia.. aku tetap lepak, relax, buat tak tau je. Hari demi hari berlalu sekadar dihabiskan begitu shaja tanpa studi. Mungkin sekadar sedar shj tak cukup untuk buat aku start studi seriously, seperti mana ada satu kata-kata yg berbunyi "Mengetahui yang betul tidak memadai dan bermakna, jika tidak melakukan perkara yang betul".

Ini buat aku terfikir zaman sekolah dulu.. Kat mrsm, ptg or mlm mesti aku studi coz time tu ada prep class. Walaupun penat, aku tetap gagahkan diri ke kelas. Kalau tak cukup waktu prep, tambah lagi studi sblom tido. Seingatnya dulu, memang jarang aku di kelas time prep. Selalunya aku di Puncak Kasih, bilik gerakan PUM yg dinamakan oleh cikgu Patli. Hehe.. Kesibukan dengan aktiviti PUM buatkan aku rasa diri banyak ketinggalan, so aku studi lebih sikit dari orang lain. Hasilnya alhamdulillah. Aku di rusia hari ini.. amek course medic plak tu. Alhamdullilah.

Tapi sejak di Rusia ni, macam semangat nak studi tu dah pudar. Takde dah nak studi smpai pagi, takde terasa akan keperluan untuk "extra mile". Cukup apa yg cikgu suapkan dalam kelas, balik bilik simpan buku, and that's all. Takde revision, takde nak tambah apa2. Is this what we called complacent? Adakah aku dah berpuas hati dengan bergelarnya aku sebagai medical student? Entah la.. aku sendiri pon tak pasti. Tapi yang pastinya, ia perlu diubah dengan kadar yang segera. I'm not in the situation where can i just play around..and wait for miracle to happen. In order for me to change, I have to push myself towards that. Aku kena berubah.

Dulu time kat mrsm aku pernah dengar dari guru-guru, segelintir student MRSM ni bila dah masuk universiti, prestasi terus menurun, tidak seperti dahulu. Ia kerana mereka terlalu biasa disuap oleh guru, terlalu terikat dengan jadual harian sbgai seorang student yg hidup di asrama. Semuanya diaturkan dengan baik. Apabila dah masuk universiti, semuanya bebas. Diri sendiri tentukan bila nak bangun tido, bila nak makan, dan yg penting sekali bila time nak STUDI. So aku rasa apa yg aku takde sekarang ni, adalah my daily life management.

So rasanya masih belum lewat untuk aku berubah. Walaupon masa dah suntuk, exam just in 2 weeks.. tapi sekurang-kurangnya aku cuba untuk berubah. Mungkin kesannya bukan sekarang atau dlm masa terdekat, tp insyaAllah aku yakin akan ada kesan positifnya nanti. Berubah bukan senang, dan perlukan kekuatan diri. InsyaAllah, akan ku gagagi diri ini sedaya upaya.


Apa yang kita perolehi dalam hidup ini, adalah sepenuhnya dari apa yang kita berikan padanya. Jadikan sikap ingin lakukan yg terbaik dalam apa jua bidang sebagai aturan hidup,pasti akan menghasilkan kecemerlangan. InsyaAllah. =)

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

~Feels GooD~

Feels good? Yeah.. feels really good. Manchester United just won Champion League last night and 10days ago they already topped the EPL, secured 2 title in their hand already. And now LA Lakers leading the series in Western Conference Final(NBA). Just a few steps more till NBA final, hope Lakers can make it to the final. Go,Go Kobe Bryant!!! You are the MVP, and you will lead Lakers to the final. Huhu.. 2 of my favourite team had a magnificent performance in their games, and it makes me feels so good. ngenge..

But thinking about my life, makes me feel nervous all over again. Today is 22nd May. Actually it's just almost a month before i'm going back to home sweet home->Malaysia. But as always before the holiday comes the most 'fun' part where it make me tremble with agitation. Yeah.. exams!!

This semester, 4 subject awaits me before i'm going home. Русскйи язык(Russian Language), Philosophy, Biochemistry and Physiology. Russian Language and Philosophy i think i can deal with them somehow. But Biochemistry and Physiology, that's make me feel a bit frail and helpless. I know i'm not the only one that feels this way, but i cant help it. Although i AM afraid for the upcoming exam, but i still do nothing. My revision not even started yet, and also i'm running out of time. (but i still have for blogging..ngenge...). See, how unprepared i am.

Lately i also bumped into some of my friends blogs. I didnt know that other people in my batch also into blogging rather than Kid and me. My blockmate, Zulhusni also already started his blog. Apparently,most of them using Wordpress, not Blogspot. Seems like they outnumbered me already. Huhu.. Never mind. I chose blogspot in the 1st place because it's involved with some HTML stuff, not just plain write and publish. But yes, i agree - Wordpress it's quite easy to use. It has their own stat rather than blogspot that i have to use some 3rd party HTML code to get my own blog stat. Quite inconvenience rite? Hehe.. Anyway, happy blogging my dear friends and keep it up!! Power to the bloggers!

Keyboard is mightier than sword. (quoted from Efenem..ngengenge..) =P

ps: i added links to my new friends, so feel free to link back here k. =)

~MediC InFo 4 toDay~

[Mnemonic]- Biochemistry
Kreb's Cycle

Can - citrate
I - isocitrate
Keep - ketoglutarate
Selling - succinyl CoA
Sex - succinate
For - fumarate
Money - malate
Officer? - oxaloacetate


That's all 4 this entry... till next time yep.. =)

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Friday, May 9, 2008

CraP + JuNk = ?

Assalamualaikum dan hi to all.

Ok.. Post pendek sebelum saya mula studi fisiologi. Dan hari ni kita gunakan bahasa melayu la. English hanya mengehadkan apa yang sy cuba sampaikan(since my english just so-so). Pada kali ini, saya nak komen sedikit mengenai satu surat pembaca Berita Harian bertarikh 06/05/08 yang bertajuk Pelajar Perubatan Tak Perlu Ke Luar Negara. 1st sekali baca INI dahulu...(credits to Leokid). Ataupun terus ke SINI untuk terus membaca artikel ini di Bharian.com.my.(atas permintaan rakan2)

Hurmm.. Setelah membacanya, perkara pertama yg saya fikir adalah apa yang membuatkan penulis ini boleh tergerak hati untuk menulis satu artikel yang saya kira agak kurang rasional. Jika berdasarkan artikel, apa saya dapat lihat :

Dipetik dari artikel penulis..
"Sepatutnya kita menghantar pelajar yang berjaya ini ke universiti dalam negara agar kita tidak lagi membazir menghantar pelajar perubatan yang berasakan diri ini terlalu bagus."


Di sini, apa yang dapat saya lihat adalah expression rasa tidak puas hati penulis kepada pelajar perubatan luar negara. Adakah ini akibat kekecewaan penulis kerana tidak berjaya ke luar negara? (hanya andaian saya, maaf jika terasa). Personally, saya terasa agak tersinggung dengan apa yang mamat ni tulis. Hehe..

Adakah saya terasa diri saya terlalu bagus? Haha.. Lucu pula apabila fikirkannya. Ok.. let set this straight. Saya tak nak jelaskan panjang lebar, tapi just fikirkan:

"Apa yang membuatkan sekumpulan kecil pelajar lepasan SPM terpilih untuk belajar diluar negara berbanding jutaan lagi pelajar lepasan SPM yang lain?"

Jawapannya?
Kualiti pelajar itu sendiri yang membezakan diri mereka berbanding pelajar-pelajar lain.

So, you get what i'm trying to say here? Hope you do understand. Hehe..

Tetapi ini tidak bermaksud pelajar2 dalam negara adalah tidak bagus. Mereka juga adalah pelajar yang cemerlang yang mana tidak kurang hebatnya, malah mungkin lebih cemerlang daripada pelajar2 luar negara. No offense k? =)

Berkenaan lain-lain perkara yang disentuh di dalam artikel itu, saya tak mahu komen banyak. Memang banyak cacat celanya dan cukuplah dengan penjelasan dari Leokid. Kita tidak seharusnya bertegang leher untuk perkara seperti ini, kerana walaupun kita meniti satu perjalanan yang berlainan, tetapi tetap menuju kepada destinasi yang satu. Pada akhirnya nanti kita semua akan berkerja pada sektor yang sama dan memperjuang satu matlamat yang sama. Belajar di dalam negara atau diluar negara, masing2 ada pros & cons yang tersendiri. Bukan satu keperluan untuk kita berbahas untuk memutuskan yang mana intan dan yang mana kaca(memilh yang mana lebih baik). Nothing we gain from this silly argument.

Harap penulis artikel ini dapat belajar sesuatu tentang kami disini. Kami bukan sekadar pelajar-pelajar yang menagih duit kerajaan membuta tuli tanpa sebarang usaha. Kami sendiri membanting tulang dan mengorban sesuatu demi membolehkan kami mencari ilmu di bumi yang asing ini. Ia bukan mudah seperti di tanah air. Jangan pertikaikan ia lagi. We really are deserved to be here.

Sekian, wassalam.


" USAH DITURUTI REAKSI EMOSI, LANTARAN IMPLIKASI TAK SERASI DENGAN APA YANG DIIMAGINASI "

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Sunday, May 4, 2008

~How Juicy is Your Blog? HiHi..~

Assalamualaikum, and hi to all. My blog is still under construction, still many widgets and page elements i'm trying to put here in this blog. But let's take a rest for a while and let's talk a bit about juiciness. Ngengenge....While i'm surfing internet just now, i bumped into this Blog Juice Calculator. Try it ~!! Read the description below... =)


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Not so bad i guess. Hehe.. So, calculate juiciness of your blog HERE

You also can compare juiciness of your blog with others. Ngenge...

Let's compare, who got the juiciest blog. Ngengenge..

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Sunday, April 27, 2008

~Site is uNder coNstruCtion...~

Now i'm having some minor reconstruction of my blog. I'm trying to add some features, and fix some problems. Thus some links and certain features in my blog don't work as usual, and i even closed access to this blog sometimes. Sorry for the inconvenience caused, and hope it will over very soon. =)

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Saturday, April 19, 2008

~ Am I Right??? ~

Huh.. a short post before i'm going to sleep. I wanna talk about what i have been thinking recently, for the past few days.

1. After reading Efenem's post about walking an extra mile, i just feel that i'm also in need for some extra more miles. Or maybe a lot of of miles actually. I'm interested with what IJN senior registrar said. He said...

“There are 3 essential things for fresh medical graduates; medical knowledge, clinical skills and work attitude. Fresh graduates have more or less the same medical knowledge. Clinical skills might develop faster in some fresh graduates. Work attitude is what defines the type of doctor you are going to be.”

Ok.. let us think a bit about this. Medical skills and work attitude maybe too early for me to think about it. I'm just in my 2nd year. Seniors, correct me if i'm wrong about this ok??

Currently the one that i should be worried about - medical knowledge. I don't think that i'm having an adequate medical knowlegde compared to my friends in other med school. I rarely burning late night candles for studying...but for watching movies, Yeah.. naturally a lot. I dont think i'm gonna be a good doctor with my current state of knowledge and the pace of my effort. I have to gear up my pace. I don't want to be treat like a trash when i start my practice.

Basic knowledges - anatomy, physiology and biochemistry. I don't think i'm good enough at it. I can't answer this question at all without looking at my notes and wiki...

A 48-year-old divorced man presents with shortness of breath. On questioning, the man admits a 20 year history of extensive alcoholism. A systems review reveal that he experiences tingling and burning sensation in his legs for the past few weeks. Physical examination reveals that he is tachycardic (heart rate 122/min), has rales bilaterally and bilateral pitting edema. He also has decreased sensation in his feet and reduced reflexes in his lower extremities. Chest X-ray shows enlarged cardiac silhouette and bilateral pulmonary congestion. The deficient factor in this condition serves as a cofactor to which enzyme?
•A. Adenosine Deaminase
•B. Aldolase B
•C. Transketolase
•D. Homogentisate oxidase
•E. Carnitine Acyltransferase

I barely able to answer this question.

So since then, i've been searching for more case-based problems. I found a wonderful site that full of questions like this, and i can brush up my rusty and sucx basic med knowledge.

Also i'm trying to study a little about usual diseases and pathological condition... such as DM, athritis, goiter, PD, gout, measles, Tb, asthma, mumps, MI, ulcer, hemorrhoid, etc. I just feel i need to know this simple diseases before knowing other complex diseases that come with weird names such as Marfan's syndrome, Sjogren Syndrome, Cushing disease, Addison's disease, MS, lupus. Huhu.. Am i right???

Ok..that all... i wont post any med mnemonic today. Too tired..need to sleep..

p/s:
My 20th birthday had passed, and i would like to take this opportunity to express my sincere,humble and immense gratitude to my family and friends. Thank you for still remembering my birthday, and i appreciate it so much. To my groupmate, thanks so much for the sumptuous cakes, baked cheese macaroni, presents and everything that served during that lovely night. It's so so good. Hehe.. So i'm eagerly looking forward for my next birthday. Then, thanks also to Izyan,Farah, Farihah n Anna for the surprise. The banana split was astonishingly good. Hehe.. Being apart from family, thousand miles away from them makes felt closer to friends. Thanks a lot! Also thanks to the 1st person that wish me happy birthday. I hope you'll be the first, and you really was. ThankS!!! =)

Tata~
C u again soon...

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Monday, April 14, 2008

I DON'T CARE!!





You're too nice,
I could hear the voice ringing through my head,
Floating upon the horizon of the past,
What's wrong with being helpful,
Being nice, to care about others,
It's how I am,
And I would never change that
People over analyze, its human nature, and to challenge is to challenge my own innate personality,
Yet, I can't stay, only lending a helping hand when needed
So let my feelings wash away,
Let my heart walk on,
On the path that I chose,
No matter the obstacles, the challenge
I'll walk that fine line of being hated and being loved
Because in the end, it's the one I chose
I bear no regrets

I dont know how to refuse when somebody asking for help, coz i just dont feel it's right to refuse it. IT'S JUST WRONG! That's how i felt, and i cant help it. I cant just ignore it.

I don't know what's wrong to be nice to somebody. I didnt mean to do any harm, didnt expecting any reward and i absolutely didnt mean to hurt anybody in any kind of way.

But it's seem somebody just feel what i did is wrong. I DONT CARE!! I'm just being myself.

Being nice to somebody also didnt mean i like that person ok?? Dont just jump into conclusion just because you didnt feel pleasant with what you see. So you dont have to talk behind my back again. I'm over it already. I'm over those silly words that keeps bugging me around. Hopes it clear to everybody. =P

And being nice also invites attempts at taking advantage. Yes, i will just say "Oh, it's ok" or "Don't mind..." but i'm not stupid or gullible. Please these kind of people.. the advantage-takers... Please. You scorns me, confuses me, terrorizes my mind, and makes me fear to live my life.. makes me feel guilty.

Please stay away from me. It's time for me to be strong and assertive. Just stay away from me if you just wanna mock me again. But I bear no regrets being like this. I'm just being myself.

OK...gonna stop bitchin' b4 anybody feel offended. Huhu.. =)

~MediC InFo 4 toDay~

[Mnemonic]
Autism : AUTISTIC PEOPLE

A = Affect isolation
U = Unrelated to others
T = Twiddle
I = I/You confusion in speech
S = Self-mutilation
T = Temper tantrums
I = Inconsistent development
C = Concrete thinking

P = Perceptual difficulties
E = Echolalia
O = Orderly
P = Physical motor disorder
L = Lack language skills
E = Excessive activity
That's all 4 this entry... till next time yep.. =)

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